Genesis of a Trill Consciousness

Preface: Mid-year 2015 I was at one of the worst places in my life.  I had completely defined myself personally and professionally in situations that had completely drained me.  I successfully used a commitment to spirituality and mindfulness to transform a mindset and view of myself that was defined externally. My co- founder was one of the main contributing factors in my environment that allowed me to still be here today.

My one critique of this piece is that it has some elements of what Buddhism defines as the demigod/ God Realm(s), or last realm of Samsara or continuous birth, boring existence, then death.  Basically, it boils down to being exposed to and seeing growth via spirituality and meditation to the point of manufacturing that realm or your existence. Once you fall off, you’re back in the sh!ts and the cycle repeats.

Thankfully, I haven’t nor do I ever plan to return to that point I was at, and this is one of the ways I plan to do it.  By using this site as a place for personal reflection and sharing things that worked for me, along with analysis of circumstances and institutions that keep you grounded in reality to have a sober outlook on the things that you can and cannot change.  I’m renewed and grounded.

Trill Consciousness represents an invitation and support system to the continuing journey from the aspiration of a purely worldly and possibly uninformed lifestyle to the pursuit of a conscious one, all while remaining trill.

My unedited, unabridged words from September 12, 2016 that lead to the creation of this site:

18 months ago I was heading towards depression.

13 Months ago I hit rock bottom.

I have nothing to say about that situation or the individual associated with it, but I can admit it broke me to my foundation. I contemplated checking out.  But, I held my L like a man. I didn’t put any passive aggressive sh!t on the internet. I didn’t go on a propaganda tour to people who may be familiar with and have an opinion on the situation to portray myself in a positive light.  I evaluated my own character flaws independent of what happened to me and resolved to fix them.

I ignored the urge to check off every woman on my hit list and committed to celibacy for a while, so that I still might be able to connect to people in the future.

12 Months ago I got out my feelings.

I started reading heavily.  I read Malcolm three times. He woke me up spiritually.  I read Garvey, Baldwin, Henrik Clarke, and Coates. I read the Bible, the Koran, and a lot about Buddha and even more about spirituality.

When you become baby conscious, you sometimes become arrogant about your people and their beliefs. I went deeper and stopped bumping my head against religion and accepted the commonality in spirituality.

My most valuable lesson was that some of the loudest people about God demonstrate the least divinity of behavior.

11 Months ago I started to get my body right to go along with getting right mentally and spiritually. Heavy meditation and yoga.

10 Months ago my twin bro finished helping me rebuild my new foundation on loyalty.

7 Months ago I hit my VP by 27 goal.

4 Months ago I had a transformative meditation experience in Cali.

2 Months ago I was in 5 states in 30 days.

10 days ago most of the closest people to me in the world came to break bread. Later a few of my ppl and I blew a couple racks empowering entertainers.

8 days ago I ruined a $400 polo with a $75 lobster  and laughed it off (You think I’m capping I’m just showing how much my temper improved).

5 days ago I was riding a jetski between the coasts of SXM and Anguilla.

3 days ago a local man saw my mala beads while I was jewelry shopping, and told me “respect bredren, if you can see the world through your spiritual eyes, you can experience it 1000 x’s the level you do with your physical eyes”.

Yesterday I spent all day with family and realized just how I beautiful life is when you focus on what’s important. I spent a check but had a lot to celebrate so it was all worth it.  I appreciate everyone who helped me cap off a legendary comeback.

 

3 thoughts on “Genesis of a Trill Consciousness

  1. Kellie O'Neal says:

    Feelin’ your story/journey as well as the apparel. How much for the spiritual savage shirt?

    Much love
    Kellie

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